?honest?

I tried 

very hard as always 

but sometimes i no longer the person that i wanted to be.

maybe to the one tat know me they might thought jess is someone tat always happy ..sometimes emo too.

but she is a simple minded person.

because this is what i wan ppl to think bout me..

JUST BE A HAPPY PERSON & SIMPLE MINDED.

but in real life i cant make it at all..im still the selfish one

im someone tat has many thought in the mind but keep everything inside ..Surprise? 

Maybe NOT!!! 

sometime ppl c through me very easily ..

im quite surprise that he c through me ..i thought i cover myself very perfect but still nt enuf .

what he say is totally true bout me which im someone tat has thought but not tough..

as usual i always do thing half way..My mom noes me very well.

i decided one thing but in the end of the day i wont make it at all..unless i been force to do so..

Bout the lying part?

i been train to lie since small ..hmm

shocked???

maybe cause of family i think ..

*some ppl when they lie we can c through

im thinking is mine can be c through also???

but i dunt think so since im use to lying ady..

is a good thing to lie u know..

is a way to protect urself

my family gave me the best education ever.

@never really count on someone ever

@never too trust anyone but yourself.

cause in the end the one get hurt or being affected is 

              JUST YOU ALONE.

maybe u think this is a pessimistic thinking but this is the truth..tats is what i feel.

after u read this blog ..maybe someone of u will hv a different thinking bout me

n the worst of all is u might just stay away from me.

BUT STILL I WAN TO SAY IT OUT LOUD WAT PERSON AM I

(seriously hope to be happy n someone that dunt think too much)